The Gap , The Journey and The Return

Taqabbal Allahu Minna wa Minkum

Bismillahirahmaanirraheem

Hamdan lillah

What better time to

materialize

some works of revivalism

than at a time when

joy and happiness and merriment fills the air!

Capture I shall this concurrent moment

when the ‘Alam of Mu’mineen rejoice

in One auspicious & celebratory event

An occasion defined by victory and vitality

an event triumphantly marking

our upgraded spirituality

O Allah the Almighty,

may we be worthy of an

Eidul Fitry Al-Mubarak

And that in essence, isn’t poetry… haha.. I’m sorry for the slight deception but they’re just essentially some preliminary thoughts, expressed in arbitrary poetical structure. See, when you’re conditioned to poetry analyzing for four daunting memory-planting years, you are very highly prone to express your writing in poetical forms…

Syawwaal 1429AH – marking my official r e t u r n to my abandoned e-teratak yang dah ber habuk ni. Ya Allah sesungguhnya. It was really dusty when I first came back to take a look at it, percayalah there were invisible cobwebs everywhere. Lol (.. that’s what you’d call imagery at play. *For those who are new to my narrative, you may have to begin getting accustomed to a literature component called Imagery as I employ it actively in my writing, thank you )

But really, honestly speaking, I felt like the place was left in such a state. And this may sound comical, but when I first revisited this untended personal site of mine, I actually forgot how to get the blog to function! An amusing yet blatant truth. Ya Allah it was the funniest thing ever! I mean, upon entering the admin control panel I just stood staring at the dashboard actually trying to recall how to operate the blog…I felt so at a lost with the whole instrument panel and was like perplexedly enquiring myself “Hmm, lets see, …..okay…….so what do I do here…?” ya it got to that extent. Lol…

Subhan Allah wal-Hamdulillah for this Finale,

After some countless number of attempts through out the year;

I am fiiinnnnally updating my dhaeef blog. *..sympathetic laughter for myself*.. lol

Subhan Allah wal Hamdulilah wallahu Akbar.

Over the year, I have been graced with the favourite inquiry cum remark

And they all say it more or less the same way

“When are you going to update your blogggg?”

The word blog tu ada harakat sikit, 2-4 harakat. It was somewhere between pleading, requesting and reprimanding. Would you like to try that out? Yea why not and become the 25^th person to reprimand me for not updating my blog… haha.just jesting. ya, I have to jest because I am still trying to get over the fact that I am chided for leaving my blog unattended (???) …ah they care too much.

No .. actually I’m really thankful..Hamdan lillah, I feel utterly blessed to have thoughtful caring and concern souls and they’re mine to keep close at heart…

Yes, my heartiest gratitude kakFatin, kakSyida and Kawther for spanking me softly on my senses…lol.. I mean for simply waking me up. Yes Kaotsar everdearest companion; thank you for reminding me that I have a blog to write! And a blog I do have, to catch up on

There were actually several more people involved and from them I picked up the indirect drive to revive this forsaken electronic journal and I feel indebted to extend my appreciation to them, in particular; a certain 4 individuals who call themselves STAY … (apparently some smart wonderful young ppl found out that their teacher owns a blog… ((oh no I’m caught!)) Lol and the number are gradually expanding ((yikes!)) Lol squared), I would also like to thank you, Des Habebaty, yes enti DesertSoul7 min Em Em <3 and my newly found inspiring associate-cohort-colleague-adiksister Wan Mads

So to date, it has been exactly 1 YEAR and 4 MONTHS plus since my last post. LOL Masha Allah indeed. Some g a p that was (!)

Well what can I say… the unintended interval –the what-seemed-like a one year hiatus from the blogsphere is no more than a manifestation of reality. The past year has been a trying adjustment period to career life for the learning teacher, there wasn’t much room in the middle of the daily hustle and bustle to even breathe properly, what more to be blog-writing, especially pula when you’re the type who takes hours to come up with a write-up…So somewhere along the way I had already made a confession that blogging isn’t really my thing

But then again, blogging is therapeutic, wouldn’t you agree? Yes I’m sure many would. And thus I cannot but remain steadfast in savouring the experience…

So, if there is the heart of the matter and the crux of the matter, then the truth of the matter here is that I haven’t stopped writing per se, it’s just that I’ve been writing ‘elsewhere’… haha. But now I’ve decided to make a comeback to my old and treasured blog. Because the sense of attachment remains …here.

So yaa, its Spring Cleaning time around here!!! I’d also need to hire a removal van to move all my bits and pieces from my elsewhere port and fling em all over ere… lol. So please bear with me while I cater to these transfer-processes

Haha. i think that shud do it with the humour… like a tank full of it…

With that we shall now move on to some more serious discourse

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Dear respected readers, kindly take a moment to discern this picture…

Take a look at the hill tops at the top of the picture

The mountain seem so near yet we know they’re so far away

Likewise, in a similar paradoxical manner,

the j o u r n e y has been short but yet, it feels so far away

I feel like I’ve walked a thousand acres of a million multitudes of miles

In just a short space of less than two years

in time

The distance in ‘the Little Paradise’ has been short

But the cherished journey; long, far and wonderful…

ever enlightening, ever fulfilling, ever rewarding.

Illahi Rabbi, my praises can never match up to Your Elevated Blessings,

I Thank You My Rabb but can never thank You enough ..

Al-Hamdu lillah, I’ve enjoyed the experience and witnessed quite a lot through out the way…and I hope to share them with you as time goes by.

Stay tuned.

How Organized Are You ?

Bismillahirahmaanirahiim

Oh dear. I really have to be extra super duper double tripple ORGANIZED this coming 2nd semester of school

With the list of entrusted responsibilities, i just cannot afford NOT to beeee!

Verily, true are the sayings of Al-Marhum Imaam HAB, and translating the phrase based on my humble understanding goes more or less as..:

There is too much work to be accomplished

than there is enough time

Oh my..

I can really feel my mind and soul gasping for air just t h i n k i n g about the amanah-amanah yang perlu dilaksanakan [trans; 'entrusted responsibilities']

It always helps to have thoughts translated, broken down and computed

+ English (1 Al-Bukhari) 6 credit hrs
+ English (1 Ibn Khaldun) 6 credit hrs
+ Literature Component (1 Al-Saylani) 2 credit hrs
+ Islamic Studies (1 Al-Bukhari) 4 credit hrs
+ Islamic Studies (1 Ibn Khaldun) 4 credit hrs
+ Hafadzan - Qiraat
+ Coordinator Special Task Unit - Tarbiya Committee
+ Mentors Committee - Syabab&Fatayaat (Islami Scouts)

.. and the best part (cynically), beginning next semester i have been honoured with, not one, but TWO..

+ 2 Halaqah groups, a group of 12 Secondary One girls and another of 10 Secondary Three girls

So, i am to d e v e l o p a total of 22 (TWENTY + Two) young Muslimaat to become good agents in the society..to become those who are not only good themselves, but help others become good. to nurture them towards the end goal of becoming those ‘who enjoin the good and forbid the evil’..

AAAAaaaaaa am i expected to be some superwoman or what..?? al-hamdu lillah i’m a woman,yes, but i’m no superwoman.. !!!!!

OK, lets just be normal beings who work superbly.

Positive thinking! Positive thinking!..during these critical moments, you just have to charge your mind positively

Yes, so heres the positive mind saying; “Be superbly organized, dear self!”. Because there is indeed beauty and goodness in being organized ..

To be organized is to be in peace,
To be organized is to be content,
To be organized is to be stress-free,

Choose peace and contentment.
Choose a stress-free life.

Choose to be organized!

Hmm .. So,

How Organized Are You?

is a question i pose against

m y s e l f.

Burden of Proof

Being a teacher is e x t r e m e l y challenging. It is especially the case when you are teaching Islamic Studies . .

Could i possibly be talking about the extra clerical work that a teacher is subjected to from time to time .. ? or am i referring to the strenuous lesson plans and book marking that a teacher is duty bounded to do .. ?

Naa. I have got to be talking about a challenge that is f a r greater than any of that. .

But i guess at the end of the day, the challenge applies to just about Anyone. Regardless of any occupation. The challenge that befall all who delivers, because

the act of delivering a piece of ‘ilm or tadzkiirah or anything of similar nature commands the speaker to be mindful over his own future actions

So when a teacher delivers a topic on Shirk and cautions of its atrocity, exhorts her students to “Safeguard yourselves from committing this unpardonable sin”

then by right, she has to be the F I R S T to commit to such admonition . .

Do you think it’s e a s y to do?

InsyaALLAH with all our might and protection from Allah, we are assured that we are fenced from committing greater or apparent polytheism [shirk 'jali' or 'akbar'] but what about shirk ’asghar’ or ‘khafi’ i.e. concealed or as islamonline terms it latent polytheism.

The latent polytheism implies being dissatisfied with the conditions ordained by Allah

See, it comes down to monitoring, examining, scrutinizing and overseeing your deepest emotions, interior conscience, feelings, inner thoughts and pysche 

because there may just be a lot of things that you aren’t satisfied with..but how do you counsel and direct your heart so that it bows down to Allah’s preordainments? 

Oh the meticulousness of it all. Oh the burden of proof!

But not to worry, dear soul. This is for the better. You’re only going through the proses of Taqwa-rearing. Is not taqwa all about being meticulous..? Oh yes, we must be meticulous at all costs, because the Prophet says

“The inconspicuous polytheism is more hidden among this nation than the track of a black ant over a black stone on a dark night”  (Musnad Ahmad)

So yes, being an educator in Islam is not just about imparting knowledge, its not only about explaining theories and presenting facts and figures, but its also and more importantly about committing to what you preach. Its about putting your speech into practice. Materializing what you verbalize. 

And when you’re teaching Islamic Studies, you’re teaching Islam. And in such affair is a direct and automatic challenge to conform to the injunctions and counsel that you transmit.

So the real challenge in actuality is ..

to keep yourself ‘Clean & Clear’ of any elements of Nifaaq . .

Ideas. Ideas. Ideas

Currently teaching Asma’ ul-husna under Aqeedah with mybeluved Secondary One

Just advertising in case anyone wishes to contribute ideas on how to generate activity related to this topic, i.e. The Attributes of Allah

.. Hmm how can i help my eleven and twelve year olds fathom the Most Beautiful Names of Allah? and not only to discern the 99 Names, but how do i develop such an understanding of the Attributes that increases their Imaan. Of course, their level of comprehension would not be similar to ours. I mean, with philosophical matters, our perception works fine with lectures and talks, but with kids…it will undoubtedly fail, their effective learning for the most part lies on hands-on experience.

I did come up with a very simple exercise where i asked my students to relate the Attributes of Allah to their needs as the created being,  like for example the Name Al-Musta’aanu or The One We Beseech, so in merriment i asked the class;

“Ok, what are some of the things that we or “you” ask from Allah? lets list them”

And they would list them enthusiastically

And then i would just elucidate a little on the answers they gave

And that was as far as it got. Yeah,i know, please excuse my poor and dull methodology, i’m no specialist in this. Revealed Knowledge was only my minor, plus the fact that i did not do Dip.Ed. but i’m trying really hard to compensate all that. 

yeah, it wasn’t a very successful first experience for the fresh graduate who’s only been teaching for 5 months, which is why i’m seeking for help, so that i would be a better teacher next semester and i can offer better experience for the coming batch of students

Please help me to help my students cultivate Saleemul Aqeedah

Jazakumullah in advance

Endless Forgiveness

Endless Forgiveness..

Anas reported that the Messenger of Allah said:

“Allah, the Exalted has declared: ‘Child of Adam! Indeed, I will continue to forgive you as long as you call upon Me and hope for My forgiveness, whatever your sins may be I care not. Child of Adam, even if your sins should pile up as high as the sky and you asked for My forgiveness, I would forgive you. Child of Adam, if you come to Me with an earth full of sins and met Me, not holding anything as my equal, I would come to you with that much forgiveness”

Reported by Tirmidhi

Muqaddimah

The ‘Adni of Klang Valley

Deep in the Valley
lies
a little paradise ..

suited to produce qiyadah of future Ummah

I want to die as a Teacher. This shall be my jihaad.

Ameen ya Rabb Al-’Alamien

An ornament called The Mizaan

Was just thinking about house decor. Decorations.. Ornaments.. Things you hang on the wall.. and their basic purpose? Well .. mainly to beautify the house, of course.

Yes, its always about beauty. Because with Dunya, its always about being pretty, beautiful and adorable. Oh yes, your decor must be impressive. Impressive enough to impress your next door neighbour..ha-ha

So, yea, where is the real value in house decoration?

Hmm it came to my thinking that.. Why not, why can’t and why don’t we have decorations with some added value..

Ornaments that serve as tadzkeerah. Since they would be displayed there on the mantlepiece, might as well have something that benefits the owners of the house

I was thinking of something like..

a scale maybe?

Oh y’know, a scale, so as to remind us to evaluate whether our ‘Amal is heavier on the right side or on the left. and there are times when we can be so deceived into thinking that we have sackfull of good deeds .. when in reality there is just dirt in the bag. O Allah, Forgive us!! A reminder for myself before it is for anyone

So yea. why not invent some nice house decoration in the shape of a scale, and perhaps name it The Mizaan

Just a thought…

Muqaddimah

Bismillahirahmaanirahiim

My ideas is simply a collection of my humble ideas. Ideas that come across my mind, documented humbly in this section that i may share them with the rest of the world.

What happened?? our noble mission down the drain..?

Dikatakan

  
Matlamat tidak menghalalkan cara

Today’s happenings taught me something more, that, which i would simpulkan in my own humble words

semurni mana matlamat dan cita-cita, jika tidak kena caranya, tak tercapai jua hasrat yang murni itu.

finally! well that wasnt too hard, now was it. he3

Okay what you just saw there was a beginner’s attempt at uploading a picture.. LOL..

AlHadmulillah, my warmest gratitude to k.Aida (Suhaida Adlina; one of our IT Teachers at school..) for giving me the tutorials.. duhh it was so simple i feel so foolish not knowing it.. lol.. have mercy on the IT / computer illiterates.. yes i mustn’t be too hard on myself. Lol! we all start somewhere! hahaha..

This picture shall be kept and treasured here – as the first image I uploaded in the history of my blog… lol.

(hahhaa..sentimental value lah katakan.. Lol.. :D)